A heart once burned, Always burns

  

 I really believe if you were once truly in love with someone, it's not going to ever go completely away. If your heart once burned for them, the fire can always be relit. At times you'll think about them, and it hurts. It hurts so bad, and you'll find yourself lying alone on the bedroom floor crying your eyes out because you saw or heard something that reminded you of them. You'll drive by the places you once spent together. At first, you'll smile a bit. Then, you'll feel an aching realization in your heart. You won't go to those places together ever again. You'll hear a song that will make you think of him. You'll think of all the good ways he made you feel, despite of all the bad.

   When you're in love with someone, your brain will turn all of the person's flaws into perfections. You unintentionally ignore all of the bad qualities of them. Your heart begins to take over, as if your brain was never needed. Knowing you deserve better and not wanting it is what will destroy you. 

   Months will go by with no communication with him. You finally start to feel like you can live without this person. Then you see them again. Those green eyes and that soft smile pull you back in like every other time. You find yourself talking about him in your day to day conversations. When he calls at two in the morning, you don't hesitate to answer. You hear his voice again, and he says your name like he used to. 

   Your heart warms because that's what it used to burn for, and still does. He'll touch you, and it will set you on fire, but again, he'll leave you there to burn by yourself. The fire starts again with his touch just for it to return to being ice cold. 

   More months go by without the random two in the morning phone calls. You haven't looked into those green eyes in awhile or heard him say your name. Your heart continues to burn for him, yet he's not there to keep the fire going. You try to find a spark with other people in desperation of the cold, but your heart freezes because they aren't him. 

   You think your heart only burns for him, so only he can relight the fire. Maybe he is the only one that can relight the fire, because you are continually handing him a match.